Having spent the better part of the last 30 years on a quest to find passion and inner peace, I consider myself a fairly experienced seeker. I have always known that there is something bigger and better out there for me and have knocked on many doors trying to find it. It was not until my oldest child was born, however, that my search intensified.
From the moment my son was put in my arms I experienced extreme anxiety and fear. At first I simply wrote it off as hormones, but as time went on the fears progressed in severity and quantity and eventually became paralyzing.
I recall dropping my son off at school when he was in the first grade and experiencing a horrible, horrible vision that included things that were most definitely beyond what might be considered a “normal” negative thought. It was very real to me and it took everything I had not to turn the car around and yank him out of his classroom, bring him home, and protect him from evil. Instead, I pulled over to the side of the road to try to get ahold of myself and was overcome with emotion and terror, literally paralyzed by the fear.
It was then I began journaling, reading books, listening to podcasts, practicing gratitude, meditating, working with a energy healer and hypnotherapist, saying daily mantras, working with a life coach, practicing visualization, and so much more. Anything and everything that I could get my hands on to try and bring me up out of the hell I was in.
I learned that in my experience there was no one thing that helped me find inner peace, but rather the sum of all of these tools. And somewhere along the way I became a seeker junkie, if you will … always searching, always learning, always trying to improve. There are never fewer than five or six books I’m reading, podcasts I’m listening to or classes I’m taking. My love of self development and the benefits I’ve gained throughout my journey led me to become a life coach, working specifically with women who are in search of a midlife reboot.
My journey has had many stops along the way but one thing has held true all along: when I experience something special, whether it be as a result of a book I’ve read or a retreat I’ve attended, I love to share it with anyone and everyone.
Every few months I would search online for a resource that housed nothing but different self development tools in one place. When I couldn’t find it, I’d joke about creating one myself – and then suddenly, and most certainly thanks to fate, I happened upon Seekers Collective through a Kickstarter search. After a bit of digging around, I found Raluca. As luck would have it, we live mere blocks from one another – yet another sign that this was fate and that I was meant to be a part of this amazing project. For that, I am most grateful.